April 23, 2010

Self Awareness

Damage control:

  •  I seriously lack the ability to take a deep breath, step back, and take things slow. 
    • I think It's because I'm power hungry. 
    • I think it's because I'm attention starved
    • I think it's because I wasn't loved enough as a kid

I'm like a supernova, I blow up. I'm everywhere at once. I overwhelm.

I can have a successful night by any standard, and fret about it. Over think it. Try to fix something that wasn't wrong in the first place.

I try to balance fake over confidence with fake under confidence.


I'm just normal. yet I'm anything but


I am way to willing to give up personal details. I am way to willing to argue over mundane issues.

I will bring up my past. It will surprise you. You will wonder why you're out with me. I will win you back.

I am charming. I am out spoken. I am a great listener.

You don't know it yet, but If you give me time, I will win you over.

And yeah, I have an ego.

April 16, 2010

Writing here to get things off ones chest seems frivolous now that I think about it.


 I wish I had someone who would listen, maybe even care.