Nothing Left to Lose

So many verbs can describe what I am right now. Let's list them. Dumb, hopeless, depressed, alone...I feel like giving up on everything right now.

I hate Provo. Actually hate isn't the right word. The right word is, I'm getting the hell out of Provo as soon as possible. I'm tired of fake friends and BS Mormons. No matter what happens, I'm gone. To be honest, I want to leave as soon as I get home. Whatever.

So here I am, depressed in AZ with my family, everything was going PERFECT. Now everything I've put into moving is about to explode in my face. All over nothing, over something insignificant and blown out of proportion by Provo Mormons who have this need, this unsustainable thirst to spread rumors and blow stuff out of proportion. Whatever. Maybe it was a waste of my time and my effort. I'm tired of throwing myself out there for people, and getting nothing in return.

Screw my life right now. When the hell do I catch my break?